Monday, June 27, 2011


Your sisters miss you so much Lucas.

They found joy when we told them that you were walking on streets of gold, playing hide and seek in the most beautiful garden and that you met a man named Noah, who told you about the very first rainbow. They love to hear about all the wonderful things you get to see and do.

Raegan & Rylee are teaching us what it means to have faith like a child. Mathew 18:3 "And he said: Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of Heaven."

They think of you often. Blow kisses to you up in Heaven and ask when you will get to come home. They draw you pictures and hold them up to the sky for you to see. They talk about all the things they want to teach you when they meet you one day. They ask if you are still small or if you are big.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011


Time has this awful way of marching on when we're not ready. When we're not ready to be another day, not even a moment further away, from when I still had your life growing inside me, when we got to hold you, and see you last. I don't want a single memory to fade, not a single detail to disappear.

I want to keep everyone lesson we are in the midst of learning forever. I don't want to forget the heart ache and the sorrow, so that I can love deeper and appreciate joy in a whole new way, for all the days of my life.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

My sweet Lucas..

It is strange seeing a picture of myself before you entered our lives.. before we ever knew we'd feel such a loss, before our hearts were broken.. before God gave us a choice at this split in the road. A choice to be bitter or joyful, angry or humbled, turn away or seek His face.